Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Our Deepest Fear

Our Deepest Fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some; it is in everyone.

And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

-Marianne Williamson

This poem had a profound effect on me at first read.  How many times do we think we ‘don’t measure up’ or get psyched out by an opponent or monumental task?  On the surface it may feel like we’ll fail, in fact it almost becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy when we dwell on it, but that is really nothing more than lack of confidence in our true abilities.  If we work too hard or we dig too deep then we may very well become what we aspire to be.  That is scary in itself, because what exists after the goal is achieved?  Does that just perpetuate another goal or does that leave us feeling like we hadn’t thought and that we can’t accept that accomplishment and the hard work in reaching that goal?  Do we just raise the bar again?  As we begin to achieve, accept and take joy in that, we inspire others around us to take hold of their fears and to spread confidence that ‘I too can do that’ with the correct preparation, mindset and persistence.  We can hide in darkness, where as, in the light, everyone will see us for what we are.  We are bigger, better and stronger than we give ourselves credit for and by not living up to that potential, we squander what is naturally and spiritually bestowed upon us.  We’re continuously conditioned to live in a state of fear and self-reflection on weaknesses, coupled with insurmountable challenges and a society that forever expects more and more of every one of us.  But nobody puts more pressure on us than the little voice inside our heads.  If we succeed beyond what we ever imagined, then what do we look forward to?  Do we then act the authority on the matter and become the aspirational model.  Yes, that is exactly right.  The benchmark is set and the hard work required to achieve that.  If it were easy, everyone would do it and the credibility would lessen.  The shear ‘going for it’ whole heartedly is the mentality of success.  Failure only comes in the lack of trying.

Monday, June 11, 2012

Providence 70.3 Course Preview

Took the trip down to the Providence course this past Sunday.  The main objective was to get in the open water, finally, and also to get a glimpse of the setting and the first few miles on the bike course. Nancy joined me for the swim and part of the bike ride.  It will be her first half, so she was also anxious to see what the course had to offer.  She's going to be great on race day.

The swim was really nice.  The water is relatively warm, not clear but seemed to be pretty clean. Nice and calm, as well.  I think the swim will be enjoyable at the race.  After that, it gets a little hairy.  The first 12 miles of the course consist of about 900+ feet of elevation gain.  Not horrendously bad, the majority of that being rolling hills, but much more than originally anticipated.  The publicized course states that the total elevation gain is just under 1400 feet with the majority of that being slam in the middle between miles 20 and 40.  Well, looks like they may have underestimated that by half.  However, no importante when racing with power.  A quick turn back at 12 miles or so and a speedy ride back into Lincoln Woods to start the AeT walk/run work.  It was hot!  The little hills around the lake were challenging, with quick ups and downs.  Finished out 45 minutes at just under 8:00 pace. 

Pretty gassed.  This weekend has reveled some cumulative fatigue that is finally taking it’s toll.  The ride Saturday and yesterday sapped me of all my power and after 5:30 of riding within 24 hours, I was fairly well fatigued for this run.  Couple that with relatively strong sun and heat, it made for a challenging couple days.

Race day will be a different story, though.  Remembering back to Timberman 2009, Joey and I went up to Ellacoya park to preview that course.  Granted the bike was a bit longer and harder that day, but I felt even worse on the run with similar environmental conditions.  I raced well and am confident that with a good taper and nutrition for the next four weeks, we will be in a good place to race on July 8. Looking forward to race day.

Friday, June 8, 2012

The Human Machine

The last several weeks I’ve been experimenting with tweaks to nutrition, lifestyle and daily habits to investigate the benefits of certain personal best practices that have yielded results, both with athletes of all kind, as well as non-athletes going about their day.

Let us summarize some of the changes:
Nutritional:
·  Last two weeks, significantly reduced, near eliminated, beer / alcohol intake
·  Last two weeks, substantial increase in vegetables and plant-based products (reduced meats)
·  No red meat

Lifestyle:
·   Sleep improvement.  More structured routine has improved sleep duration and quality
·   Standing workstation at the office (improved posture and core engagement)

Training / Physical:
·   Core, Core, Core!!!
·   30 minute massage every 2-4 weeks
·   Bi/Monthly chiropractic appointment
·   Focused run form: posture, cadence, posterior chain engagement
·   ~12-15 hours a week of multisport and functional strength training

As a result, I’m feeling the best I’ve felt in years, if not ever.  It’s way too early to tell to what extent each of these elements have played in my overall improvement in feel, but I’ve definitely noticed the change.  I’ve experienced a surge in power, vitality and overall well being.
The experiment continues.  More to come…